2009年12月31日 星期四
新年
不自知不觉2009年到了尾声
今年2009应该是我人生中最多转变的一年
回想去年这个时候我只想好好努力考好ALEVEL,其他的真的没想太多,不过也会在心里默默的祈祷着,希望一切变得更好,天天都开心,可以说有一半是如愿了。
为什么是一半呢?
这一年以来我学到了很多,其实好与坏是并存的,所以是一半咯!
在一切变得更好之前都要经历灾难的,在天天开心之前也要留下桶桶泪水,如果你问我值得吗?当然值得。
真的很庆幸我能走到这里。可这并不是我的终点,终点还很遥远,但要很努力地走下去。辛苦了我的宝贝,要和我一起走下去,有你,我不怕!
谢谢所有教我人生意义的人。包括家人和朋友们,谢谢大家。
也要感谢上帝,这么的眷顾我,磨炼我,让我成为更好的人。
2010年,新的一年,新的冲刺,加油,加油再加油!
祝福大家,新年快乐!
2009年12月29日 星期二
2009年12月28日 星期一
Believe
once i am interviewed by a friend who is a student reporter
the topic is trust in friendship
i tell her that no one in this world can be trust
she is shock i hv such special kind of thought
its true
when even urself can betray ur ownself
who else in this world can u trust?
does such thing call trust ever exists in this world
don be too passive, my fren said
u just hvn meet the right one
and there are a lot of songs in term of believe
once in a while u ll oppose ur ownself because of the one u love
u don consider it as betraying ur self?
but i believe it is
sorry to myself
sorry to the one that trust me
i don worth a trust
coz i m a person that ll betray my ownself
and of course
never believe in trust....
till today
even i hv already found the right one in my life
thanks for accept someone like me...
who don know how to love
and being loved
thank god
and god pls give me strength
to heel broken hearts
that coz by me ....
Sorry
humAN soul is really weak
no one in this world can understand
thing calls feeling
i know clearly i m one of these ordinary people
i cant believe oso sometime i do did something but i din mean it
life is tough
even more tedious to find another lonely soul
that wait for the same kind of shelter as u do
and human normally refer it to love
love is powerful
in the sense of motivation, enlightment
but don forgt it will really show its ultimate power when comes to disastrous
do i really mean to hurt anyone
no i don
everyone ll hv the same thought with me when he or she did something others consider as wrong
i m so sorry
this is the typical lyrics
sorry no cure
ya , it is
but still sorry
once upon a time
i hv think about it
when wrong means wrong
y ?
who can determine what is wrong and what is right?
some more in the matter of love
it is too complicated
and normally people ll say there are no right
nor there is wrong
sorry sorry
a song that is dame famous in korean and whole asia
a word that spoken most by most of the people
i m sorry
too simple
too common
too unsincere
but still
i m so sorry
p/s: to all that i hd hurt before and may hurt in the future
2009年12月27日 星期日
甜甜圈
天天非常想你的甜点
飞过城市的边缘
降落爱你的终点
想念互道晚安的每一天
却又舍不得说再见
你的笑那么甜
我的直觉就是那么坚决
不怕有暴风圈
因为你是我最晴朗的大晴天
爱要你牵我的手每一天
我要非常用心感觉
因为爱你
才是我最后最美丽的句点
喜欢在你的肩膀盘旋
习惯两个人的世界
才让我的心永远像甜甜圈
牵你的手还是有点紧张
看你双眼怎么好好说话
这次真的下定决心
鼓起勇气拥抱你
让我们的爱连成完美圈圈
曾经怀疑自己是否能保护你
是你让我看见世界美丽
是你带我走向温暖生命
因为有你我的天空放晴
紧握住你的手一起迎接未来
十八岁的蔚蓝环绕永远的爱
却又舍不得说再见(说再见)
是否能够继续
因为你能让我真正充满勇气
有你才可以真正面对自己(呵…)
一起面对未来十八岁的蔚蓝
两人一起拥抱永远的爱
2009年12月25日 星期五
2009年12月23日 星期三
2009年12月19日 星期六
2009年11月23日 星期一
2009年11月21日 星期六
这条路不好走
今天凯欣要去修鞋子,她说印度的路很难走,鞋子都坏了!
我说:对阿!这条路真的不好走。医学这条路, 很漫长,要有一颗很真诚的心,永不放弃的心,永远坚持跟常青的心。其实医学这一科我从来都没想过,因为自己不够quali,因为要读很久,因为会很忙。不过我就是这样的一个人,爱好忙碌,没有什么好,就是比人能耐,可以三天不睡觉,可以在很短的时间内完成很多事情。妈妈说:不如考虑学医,可以救人,也可以提升自己跟家人的生活水平。一向以来都很想改变这个世界,就想搞不好当医生真的可以改变世界。。不过也要看我的造化,因为家里根本没能供我读医科,申请奖学金吧!皇天不负有心人,得了政府奖学金,路才刚开始。。。我对妈妈说:很漫长,想放弃,妈妈一句话打动了我。妈妈说:我从怀胎十月到你们出世,够久吧!出世后到你们上学,够久吧!到你们长大,十多二十年的时光,够久吧!世上有哪些事不需要时间的呢?一步登天又能做什么?所以急性子的我就想打通五筋六脉,选择往这条路闯。。
以为这是一条专注于通往未来前途的道路,不过半途,命中注定的那个人出现了,原来我真真要走的路,是这样的。如果当初放弃了,我根本不会遇见你,是命中注定的缘分吗?从此这条路就变得更漫长,漫长的相思,漫长的等待,有时也会彷徨,究竟会有理想中的结果吗?我相信,我们能的,对吧!
谢谢你,虽然一切都太仓促,不过人生短短数十载,这样我们才不会浪费珍惜彼此的光阴?!
这条路不好走
但有人牵着走
也不妨潇洒走一走
或许半途被逼分离
但有人在另一岸
向你招手
既然是前世约定要挽的手
就要努力往前走
然后路还很长
不过可以牵着一起走。。。
2009年11月17日 星期二
牵手
2009年11月14日 星期六
想
泪为墨 心为纸 感动与心痛 纵横 写永恒
2009年11月8日 星期日
生命的色彩
2009年11月6日 星期五
2009年11月5日 星期四
不完美的爱
只要是你的爱,就是我要的爱,别说不完整,在我心里,你是无限的,你忘了吗?
刚才才知道原来我是这么的容易被你影响,原来我真的很很很很很想你
那首该死的秋来又秋去又一直在脑海里回荡
我在想要到几时才能回到你身边,牛郎和织女也一年能相拥一次,我们呢?
我想到时我见到你一定会把你抱得紧紧的。
不过,我愿意等,无论多久,也不会怨你,所以不要觉得对不起我,只要你爱我,就够了,我会永远守候着我们的爱
其实在不知不觉中,想你已经变成像血在流一样,理所当然,无时无刻,随时随地,当一个人在走路,当吃好吃的东西,当上课一半,当看到别的情侣,当一个人听歌,甚至难得有十分钟的空闲时间,上厕所的时间,最想你是每晚闭眼睡前的一刻。还有他们一直在我面前提起你。。渐渐的我习惯甚至喜欢上这种感觉,所以无奈就被取而代之了。谁说不完美,我觉得很美呢^^
2009年10月30日 星期五
Finally
Ever since i reach here, manipal, i am not feeling well, i hv headache, stomachache, back pain, cramps, feeling weak, ...all kinds of symptoms...is like too much of pattern as what siong and eleen said...
Actually i like here so much...i am happy that i m here except that i m far away from home...normally i m happy with busy life... those that know me well will certainly agree on that...so what's the problem now?
I always wonder...
May be i thought that I can adapt fast but i am not...
May be i really miss home but not concious about that...
May be the two month of rest slow everthing down...
May be i really miss him...
May be i am not prepared well to be a medical student..
so much of may be and i know 99% of it is true
is quite late for me to finally notice it now...
Thank God.. i finally get used to it now..after one and a half month
is it too slow..ya quite as compared to my past experience..lol
but this is a nice start...should i call it a start
??
so, let's work hard ...cheer up...dear 78...hehe ...my roll no. in class
2009年10月24日 星期六
My experience at the hospital
This is the entrance of Kasturba Hospital..
Since young , i never like to go to the hospital, i don like to c doctor or dentists at the clinic either, its not bcoz of d smell of medicine or wat...i just don't like to go if not necessary, may be bcoz it gives me the feelings of sadness...but i really like to help those who are suffering, that's why i take MBBS.
As a student here, we have medicare service for free.I had sore throat since i reach IndiA, may be bcoz i was not used to the water, the food and the weather here, so i went to the hospital. Apart from sore throat, the doctor asked if i had joint pain and others complaints or not. Is true that i hd pain all over my body that day. So, for prognosis purpose, they took 3 heparinised vacutainers of my blood and they oso do ECG for me, OMG..how come sore throat can lead to heart problem one..luckily its normal...sweat..
I never go back to consult the doctor after that,coz I am too busy and just don't hv time to go there though it is quite near the university.Till that day my friends went to the dentist for braises.
I always have the wish to do braises so that my teeth can be relocated neatly..
Since i will be studying here in Manipal for 2 and a half years, i decide to consult the dentist here. I saw my blood test in my file..it states that my hemoglobin and HCT levels are low..at first, i don't really border about that..but i have class and practical on blood topics in physiology, then i find out i am a bit anemic and i hv to do something bout it..but i just don't have time to go to the hospital for consultation on that coz i ll spend half a day there if i go , the hospital is owiz crowded and i hv biochem and physio exams, SDL next week. Luckily the parcel that my mum send arrive d..its exactly 14 days as wat postlaju promise. So, i hv d chinese herbs that my mum prepare 4 me...Thanks mummy..I love u..
Talking bout the braises, i had another shocking thing to discover. I always thought that my teeth just not grown in the appropriate position but it is not. The dentist said i have problem because one of my facial bone is slightly inside compared to the normal one, and to fix everything i have to gone through a surgery called orthonagtics, it ll invovle plastic surgeon also cause is the bone that they are going to relocate not just the teeth. If i go for the surgery, i ll look better with my bone in right position but my face ll change a bit..they said i can consider first, if not they ll just put braises on my teeth.
OMG!!!Am i going to do plastic surgery in India. I asked some of my friends, some says since it is so cheap and i can improve my image, don't waste the chance, but some say it is not that complicated, just straighten the teeth will do..some say they ll miss how i look now if i go...
Actually, i really don't want to be more beautiful or what, i just satisfied with how i look now, plus surgery ll owiz related to complications and consequence effects, so i decide to do braises only..
Its hard to belive...what will be the consequence if i go for the surgery...lol...who knows????^^
2009年10月22日 星期四
我怀疑
2009年10月17日 星期六
明月照紅塵
天上星星数不清
2009年10月15日 星期四
DreAM
It does not matter much whom we live with in this world, but it matters a great deal whom we dream of.
Willa Cather (1873-1947)
Every day and night
You are in my dreAM
Even when I was awake
Is this dream
that bring me nearer and closer
deep inside
the bottom of thoughts
like the stars shine at night
they unite
and form a line
from mine to yours
just like what u say
now or then
near or far
lovin' you
that is my answer
2009年10月3日 星期六
中秋
中秋佳节庆团圆,但我却离家这么远,从坐飞机到达车摇摇晃晃,漫长的的路途,风尘迫迫到了异乡求学,才知道回家的路可以这么远的。
今天真是繁忙的一天。早上上课半睡半醒的,然后还要加节,过后还有帮学长做SURVEY,然后急急忙忙跑到蛮远的警察局拿RESIDENTIALPERMIT,当了将近一个月的非法移民总算拿到居留证。
一整天都下大雨,全身除了雨水还有被溅到的烂泥,我才惊觉我真的在印度了。
不过开始喜欢欣赏这边的雨,坐在餐厅里,望出去,雨一下向左一下向右,千变万化。而我也很快学会了感受风的方向,要不然可会拿着雨伞却淋得像落汤鸡.
这个中秋恐怕也看不到月亮了,所以根本就没有什么外国月亮比较圆的。月亮姑娘啊,还真是很挂念你叻!
2009年9月3日 星期四
There is no rain tonite
Depress
i feel unsatisfied
i feel depress
everything just not in good manner
hutan lost d
jun fly d
i ll hv to fly soon
tvxq r facing with contract case
jun's family don seem to like me
i don like myself either
i wan 2 gt my mind heart n soul to b free
god please help me
guanyin pusha i pray hard to u
i wan to shout out loud
i wan to cry
but i hv promise someone
very important
i cant
songs, music, sutra
or
sleep, eat, watching tv
still i feel mess up
keep on saying
cheer up
cheer up
but just cant help
ahrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
mayb tis can help
shld i bcum
wu qing again?
shld i?
can i?
y m i so useless?
cant stand my self
u r useless
useless
useless
run
run
run
gambateh!!!!
fighting!!!!
i love u!!!!
2009年8月23日 星期日
finaLLY gt my a-levels results
thank God
is15!!!!
congrats to all my frens as well
now waiting
waiting to fly
i believe i can fly...^^
everything shld b ok
lalala....
yesterday i compose a song..
quite weird to sing it out..
but nice playing with chinese flute...
miss orchestra very much..
later will miss home oso..
have to enjoy to the fullest this few days...
Goodbye my love...
wait 4 me
n...
INDIA!!!!
i m coming^^
thank God
is15!!!!
congrats to all my frens as well
now waiting
waiting to fly
i believe i can fly...^^
everything shld b ok
lalala....
yesterday i compose a song..
quite weird to sing it out..
but nice playing with chinese flute...
miss orchestra very much..
later will miss home oso..
have to enjoy to the fullest this few days...
Goodbye my love...
wait 4 me
n...
INDIA!!!!
i m coming^^
2009年7月21日 星期二
Long time not drop by here oredi...paise la...
this whole month i have gone through lots of new and interesting experience...
i have been to BTN...for those who dont know is birotatanegara...its fun and i met lotz of cool ppl there....
just cant believe a-level is over...now waiting for result...hope everything will b fine...
another great newz is my form five classmate juz get married today...really hard to believe..bt its true...hope love and happiness will surround her everday and nite...
ConGratz....my dear POOiYee...Her husband is from Pahang...don't know till when v can meet again...miss u...
this whole month i have gone through lots of new and interesting experience...
i have been to BTN...for those who dont know is birotatanegara...its fun and i met lotz of cool ppl there....
just cant believe a-level is over...now waiting for result...hope everything will b fine...
another great newz is my form five classmate juz get married today...really hard to believe..bt its true...hope love and happiness will surround her everday and nite...
ConGratz....my dear POOiYee...Her husband is from Pahang...don't know till when v can meet again...miss u...
2009年6月26日 星期五
2009年6月23日 星期二
finally...everything ends...
thank god it ends in a good manner...
today i have done my interview in Melaka Manipal Medical College...
They ask quiet simple question...
its quiet weird that my session end so fast...i just talk to them 4 bout 8 minutes but others are mainly 10 to 15 mins..
hope its fine...
The campus is beautiful...i love the sport complex...with inviting swimming pool. sauna room, dancing floor, gym...quiet like a resort...
thanks to our senior there...Ning Xin...she is from intec also ALM5...
The first thing that attract me is the lotus pool in front...its purple...its serene...its beautiful...
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Don't know Why...i feel scare...
i suppose to feel relief...
not b'coz of interview..
not b'coz of a-level..
not b'coz of him..
not b'coz of BTN of course,,,
its b'coz of myself..
when everything ends i lost my destination
i am scare of the uncertainty in the future..
although everyone say i can..
although i think i can oso..
but
still..
i am scare..
may be i am juz not enough sleep...
hope everything ll b fine 2mlw...
thank god it ends in a good manner...
today i have done my interview in Melaka Manipal Medical College...
They ask quiet simple question...
its quiet weird that my session end so fast...i just talk to them 4 bout 8 minutes but others are mainly 10 to 15 mins..
hope its fine...
The campus is beautiful...i love the sport complex...with inviting swimming pool. sauna room, dancing floor, gym...quiet like a resort...
thanks to our senior there...Ning Xin...she is from intec also ALM5...
The first thing that attract me is the lotus pool in front...its purple...its serene...its beautiful...
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Don't know Why...i feel scare...
i suppose to feel relief...
not b'coz of interview..
not b'coz of a-level..
not b'coz of him..
not b'coz of BTN of course,,,
its b'coz of myself..
when everything ends i lost my destination
i am scare of the uncertainty in the future..
although everyone say i can..
although i think i can oso..
but
still..
i am scare..
may be i am juz not enough sleep...
hope everything ll b fine 2mlw...
2009年6月22日 星期一
昨天,今天,明天
2009年6月19日 星期五
Last Day..
Finally...here come ...the last day in INTEC,UiTM...
Seems like everyday in the past two years..i have been longing 4 today to come...
Not that i dislike this place...of course every student is aiming to graduate...just that when today is today...i have somekind of feeling in my heart somewhere that shows that i actually fall in love with this place...
the first day i come ... i have lots of aims...Thank God that i can fulfill most of it...i never waste my time here...
There are lots of sweet memories here...
Apart from studying...
i make valueable friends here..
my classmates
my roommates
my housemates
my dancemates
my lecturers
...
Remember the moment we cook, we jog, we sing, we dance, we perform, we party, we do choral speaking and be the champion..
Not to forget also the time we laugh, we joke, we chit chat, we gossip, we make fun, we quarrel but getting know each other better then...
Although its a bit sad to say goodbye to all this...still everyone need to move on to achieve what we want...
All the best to everyone for your future undertakings...
I'm actually looking forward to meet u all then...may be five years, may be ten years...by then each and everyone of us will be different...
as a doctor
as a pharmachist
as an engineer
as a lecturer
as a biotechnologist
or
as a father or mother....
hope we all get to achieve goals in life...
cheerSSSSS!!!!!!!^^
Seems like everyday in the past two years..i have been longing 4 today to come...
Not that i dislike this place...of course every student is aiming to graduate...just that when today is today...i have somekind of feeling in my heart somewhere that shows that i actually fall in love with this place...
the first day i come ... i have lots of aims...Thank God that i can fulfill most of it...i never waste my time here...
There are lots of sweet memories here...
Apart from studying...
i make valueable friends here..
my classmates
my roommates
my housemates
my dancemates
my lecturers
...
Remember the moment we cook, we jog, we sing, we dance, we perform, we party, we do choral speaking and be the champion..
Not to forget also the time we laugh, we joke, we chit chat, we gossip, we make fun, we quarrel but getting know each other better then...
Although its a bit sad to say goodbye to all this...still everyone need to move on to achieve what we want...
All the best to everyone for your future undertakings...
I'm actually looking forward to meet u all then...may be five years, may be ten years...by then each and everyone of us will be different...
as a doctor
as a pharmachist
as an engineer
as a lecturer
as a biotechnologist
or
as a father or mother....
hope we all get to achieve goals in life...
cheerSSSSS!!!!!!!^^
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