Medicine and psychiatry posting + St. Mary Island + Jog Fall + Goa trip

After posting at Medicine department for 3 weeks, i feel exhausted, but i know the journeys are just starting. However i feel satisfied, i am overwhelmed by the diagnostic skills and incorporation of all the knowledge i have learned so far in anatomy, physiology, biochemistry, pathology, microbiology, pharmacology and also forensic medicine-- subjects that i had for the past 2 years of study in MBBS. Through this posting i learned a lot, i recalled things that i had learned and tried to use them simultaneously, though it’s quiet hectic for me, but I enjoyed the process of learning.. thanks to all the doctors that help me throughout my first clinical posting..^^ I also managed to establish good rapport with some of the patients.. felt so grateful that they gave us chance to examine them to gain experience even though they were badly sick and they knew that we are not capable to treat their diseases.. one great things is most of them spoke with their mother tongue.. so i got to learn a bit of their language .. Kannada and Hindi..

The next posting is Psychiatry, my favorite subject ever… unfortunately, I didn’t enjoyed much as in medicine department.. It’s nothing to do with the workload, or doctors there, they are all very nice people, and I love them a lot too.. Problem is I just can’t put myself at ease when facing the patients, even when sitting in a lecture room.. I tell myself ..hey, its your dream… and you just reach where u suppose to be..remember such a long and hard journey u had gone through to reach here? Quick.. back to sense!!! But still I can’t , I just… stuck …

Why? What is that? What’s stopping me??? I really can’t figure out… I know its my own problem… I know it deep inside… I know it can or cannot be a problem.. but I choose to percept it as a problem. what the hell.. this is so not like me.. I hate myself like this..I try to escape and pretend, as if never happen…

I decided to go on trips… having fun with my fellow batchmates… its was marvelous, fabulous, exciting and wonderful… We went to St. Mary island, an island near Malpe beach , nearest beach from Manipal… We had fun at the island as well as near the beach.. by the end of the day we saw double rainbow.. it was just breathtaking…

Next trip was to Jog falls, the second highest fall in India.. its was so so beautiful.. we had a picnic there.. some of us climbed the rocks to reach under the falls… when the water just splashed down our head.. its painful ..yet so relieving….. ahhRRR… refreshing.. suddenly its rain… but we can't really differentiate the rain or the water from up the hills… just a while the rain stopped… and sun rised.. to my surprise.. I was surrounded by rainbows…so nice… too bad our camera weren’t water proof.. cant capture this ‘miracle’.. happiness is just so simple and easy to get..

Next destination… GOA… I bet I had my greatest joy ever since last 2 weeks. There I ate meat and seafood after so long as a vegetarian… I had seafood platter with full plate of squid, prawns, fish and crab.. I also had lobster.. my first ever lobster….. life is just wonderful sometime when we breaks rules.. oh.. amitabha.. pls forgive me for being rebellious.. i also had lots of fun near the beach… we had lots of water game there… the waves, the sunset.. I would never forget.. and I got to ‘fly’ on a parachute… surely amazing.. how nice if my family also get the chance to enjoy like this..

Finally second weeks end.. thought its quite tiring but I feel happy… now I don’t even have time to think of what’s my problem to not be enjoying in psychiatry posting… coz end-posting viva is coming… its time to study… a bit sad …last weeks with patients of my favourite… Its kinda weird if I say like this.. they are ppl with schizophrenia, depression, mania, OCD, MPD, Anxiety disorders, psychosis, Bipolar, delirium…etc..still it has been my mission to be able to help them one day since young…I think I will miss psychiatry department very much..