深夜了，其实应该去睡了。但似乎有好多好多的事情想，好多好多话要讲，却说不出个所以然。

也许很多事情再多说也没什么意义。

看开了许多事，心情其实比较坦荡，比较快活。还有那么一点点的在意，一点点的郁闷，但那也是难免的，毕竟人非圣贤，我本来就是个感情多多的傻子。会好的，会过去的，会慢慢习惯的，不被了解，不被呵护的感觉。真的很怀念过去的自己，虽然很多缺点，虽然什么都不懂，但依然有人呵护，疼惜，不过我想我没有后悔当今天的自己，比以前更进步，更懂事，更清楚自己的方向。或许应该说懵懵懂懂的日子已经离我越来越远，人长大了视野也很不一样。

不过想起来也真的很好笑。以前自认坚强勇敢潇洒，大家都不信，反而更觉得我需要被保护；现在我承认自己其实很差劲，很脆弱的，大家还是不信，觉得我在假装。

世事还真的很矛盾啊！不过现在我并不会在意别人的眼光。一直以来都太在乎别人怎么看自己，太爱面子，太肤浅，内心没有好好沉淀，太过飘渺，迷茫，虚有其表。是时候活得更踏实，实际一些！

现在只要每天都抱着开朗的心，充分的享受每一分一秒，很多事情尽量拿捏，不重不轻，对于一些人，一些话也无须太在意，专心做好应该做的，我想我会幸福的。

OBG posting

It's India Public Day today, so i got one day holiday. . at least for this CNY...

Today google page got a nice icon of elephants.. i bet i will really miss these elephants, or I should say i will really miss INDIA once i get back to Malaysia.

Now is almost near the end, my journey in Manipal.. Can't believe this two and a half years just pass like that. I can't say this is the toughest experience in my life but its is the most unbelievable miracle so far for me to have gone through this much.

Learning about medicine, the profession of a doctor that save life-- the noble job that assist GOD, just like an angel.. Can't believe i had chosen

to be one of them and can't believe i had been through this far.

The learning itself has been an interesting and fascinating experience. We get to know more about ourselves as a human being. Though I always like to mup up and memorized text as if it is my nature to do so, i find it hard when it comes to the ANATOMY of human body. Truly, God had done a great job in creating human with that bunch of muscles, nerves, vessels, and the most complicated part-- the BRAIN. Isn't it irony that my brain have difficulty in memorizing his own parts and function.. TROLLLLL!!!!!

Anyway, i passed the subject and when it is no more a subject to learn for exam i found it more attractive and more friendly to me.. *am i MAD to imagine that the subject has became like one of my best friend ever***well it does especially when come to application on medicine and surgery.. though most of the time i found myself as a fool for not knowing most of the structure soaking in that amount of blood that my mum will surely faint if she saw...i shall be satisfied when i revised it again and found out that i actually did study for the pass 2 years.. as a consolation maybe..

The theory part has always become so dull that most of my friends complaint and we found it quite useless and irrational to have learn too much but forget about it totally after the exam.. We hope we din't cause this profession is deal with the matter of life and death counted in seconds but sometime we just have to, because my brain feel stuff and congested, i had no choice but to remove previous memory... I bet all the medical students d

id that for the sake of passing the test..

Although this is the impression i get since i had been enrolled into the medical school.. but lately i found out and i knew i would find out one day .. the purpose of

all that i had been doing so far got its reason behind. As in buddha teaching all happenings are with its karma. I know that i am always too lacking since i started MBBS.. I am no longer the top student like last time in school. I always felt sad and traumatized to see my badly done results. SOmetimes i just feel like giving up but can you imagine, with this tiny and low level of mine that barely and just enough to pass i manage to explain to my family and other friends about the diseases and condition that they have, the basis behind it and the way to relieve the pain or to get cure.. I felt relieve, seriously, though i never have confident to do so but again its unbelievable, that it is ME that can do this.. Of course i have to learn more, sincerely and humbly so that i can help all of my patient in future.

The clinical year that i had started for 4 months so far are really inspiring. Mostly inspired by all the DOCTORS.. THey are really too great. Seeing them working day in and out for their patients, the knowledge, the skills, and the wisdom they have really make me motivated in learning ..

I get lots of different and amusing experience in each of the department.. But .. apart from the fun of learning, . there are always sorrows and tears.. though they are not my patients, though they are not known to me, but yet i felt sad to hear all the bad news.. standing beside them but nothing i can do except just some words of support.. i know there are more times like this in my career in the future, it still haven't start and getting started ..

Getting posted in obstetrics and gynaecology department after peadiatrics.. Women are the main concerned here.. I get to know more about myself and its time for me to take good care of myself for the sake of my baby in the future, hope it isn't too late now. No wonder mothers are noble, the responsibility to their child started since the day they know that they are female. Anything happens to their own body will have effects to their babies when they get pregnant later. There is only one thing flash in my mind when i realised it, for my condition now i know i can't make it. With all my history of amenorrhea, metrorrhagia, dysmenorrhea, the body that always deprived of rest and aneamic... I felt sorry for myself, should have taken better care before.. SO what to do now is start from now on i have to take extra care .. even if i am ot going to get married and have children, i have to be responsible to myself to prevent complication further in my life.

Watching both cesarean and normal vaginal labour, make me touch.. Mothers are really awesome to have the courage to gone through such pain just to deliver the baby.. seeing patients everyday in the OPD, Ward, Labour Room, OT.. lots of complications and suffer they had gone through throughout the whole process of pregnancy.. but it all paid off the moment they heard the baby cries for the first time ... TO all the disobedient and rebellious child out there, please be ashamed to have treat your parents badly.. I think all of us should see how a mother giving birth, then there will be no naughty and disobedient children, don't cha agree??

Each and everyday, i should study hard and learn well so that i can become like one of those professor of mine .. TO be a GOOD DOCTOR... =)

Can I set fire to the rain?

The first post of this new year..

I thought i have a new year resolution , I thought I can make it starting from the very first day..

so what now?? i don't even know am i suppose to be sad now??

what i know is I am hurt, again, once again..

though it won't be like those time, though as if it won't hurt..

I am just too disappointed to myself, I am angry that I have that feeling once again..

Please, don't .. my dear friend, don't approach me again if you were to hurt me again..

I don't want to be hurt, again and again..

This feeling is too sucks!!! Just as the lyrics ... Adele-- Set Fire to the Rain

My hands, they're strong

But my knees were far too weak

To stand in your arms

Without falling to your feet

But there's a side to you

That I never knew, never knew.

All the things you'd say

They were never true, never true,

And the games you play

You would always win, always win.

彻夜难眠

忙忙碌碌的，一天过这一天，大部分岁月在认真与享受中度过，我想我比从前更懂得享受与珍惜每分每秒。。在医院学习了很多，很充实，也很会做些有的没得来满足自己。。

每晚不是因为看戏或聊天到三更，就是有节目到很夜，感觉在蹉跎岁月，但却不觉得内疚。。很累的身子，疲倦的精神，每天都是如此，告诉自己，我还好，我能的，这是我要的。。虽然不完全是谎言，但有一部分都是装出来的伪装，故意颓废，放纵，逃避。。究竟是为了什么?? 我似懂非懂。。满满的行程，策划，为什么还是很空虚??

也许不需想太多，其实也没什么事的。。

今夜，没有要追戏，没有聊天的对象，没有可以做的事，满满的思绪，但不至于要爆炸，我想彻夜难眠，正是最好的形容词。。

很彷徨，很担心，很多疑问，很悸动，很多思绪，不懂从何说起，不懂该如何诉说，不懂向谁诉说。。什么都不能做，只有祈祷。。开始有点害怕，害怕着未来。。。。。。

丁薇◎冬天来了

作曲·丁薇 作词·丁薇 编曲·赵麟/金武嶙
姓名：丁薇 蓝调女歌手 南京人
她还为马格的《女孩与四重奏》谱了曲
在“新生代”歌手中她是比较有个性的一位
让我们一起欣赏丁薇与众不同的音乐

树叶黄了 就要掉了
被风吹了 找不到了
太阳累了 就要睡了
留下月亮 等着天亮
冬天来了 觉得凉了
水不流了 你也走了
音乐响了 让我哭了
心亦丢了 还会痛吗
啦啦啦啦啦....
还会痛吗

:)

这两天心情真的很沉重，每一次发生类似的事情，终会让我的心很纠结，可能我真的对人太粗心大意，但又很在乎那个人，究竟为什么？我也许懂也许不懂。。我也发现自己真的很烂，怎么可以那么的迟钝，那么的懵懂，才会造成彼此的伤害。。也许吧！我啊！真的很无情，不值得拥有那么一个好朋友。。

今天，心情还是一样忐忑，也不知道该怎么办。。或许什么都不做会简单一些，但这也太不像我的作风了。

上天真的很眷顾我，这段时间我犯了很多很多的错，但祂却一直在给我机会，给我自己也认为自己不值得给予的机会。。一而再的不知悔改，

但祂依然没有吝啬。。我真的很感恩。。

今天虽然也算不上什么大事，但真的，给了我很大的动力。。 谢谢阿弥陀佛，也谢谢那小弟弟。。 虽然算不上美，但对于一个七岁的小孩，那画工已经很厉害了。。虽然他说他只是随便选一个人来画，但我真的很感激，也很感动。。谢谢老天知道我心情不好，赐予我这个荣幸成为那画里的主角。

我一直都相信神明的存在，但 我不曾祈求什么奇迹，对于现在所拥有的已感到万分满足。。祂 却总会在我生命里插窜小小的惊喜，告诉我，即便看不见 祂 依然存在。。 真的很感恩 祂 不但赐予我所需要的，还无时无刻送我从未想过会得到的。。阿弥陀佛～

i always believe in HIS existence but i never ask for miracle as i always feel grateful for what i already have.. Today once again HE shows me his existence by making my day so wonderful even with a small small surprise.. I feel really grateful for having what i never thought of despite having what i would have needed.. Amitabha~

很久很久没有这种感觉了。。很想哭却知道不可以哭，一哭就无可救药了。。很多话想说，但早已没有倾诉的对象。。走在宁静的街道上。。街灯的灯黄黄的，忧郁惆怅。。一缕冷风吹过。。冰冰的但却很舒服。。走着走着。。仿佛失去了去向。。纠结的心，疲惫的身躯，感觉已走了好远但还没到达。。感觉已加快速度但并没有快感。。眼泪似乎不听使唤，但还是憋住了，流进了心里。。透巧的水滴声，弹入内心深处，泛起涟漪，淹没了。。。

冷冰冰的空气，传来悦耳的小提琴清奏。。疲惫的双眼还不想睡去，背又再隐隐作痛。。很想赶快回到温暖的床，把自己封闭，不想再接触世界的繁华。。

once again

once again , i knew, i din't understand and know u well

once again, i confirmed, i din't understand and know myself as well

... ...

improve

just after community medicine posting, life is still long way to go.. but today i suddenly feel tired.. that's something wrong but yet nothing is wrong..

contradiction arises in between me and my self...

why i just cant do anything moderately??

why am i hv to be so extreme in everything?

why cant i treat myself better??

why should i hv so many expectation on myself???

why why why... but still i am not trying to get an answer.. i just a bit tired of myself

don't worry, i am not getting emo again.. just that may be i shld do nothing to get somehting ... but not everything and get nothing...

i knew that i am just an average person , not even close to good.. but i didn't know that i am that kind of person that people should avoid... i am not upset about this.. just that i feel disappointed to myself.. i am just expecting too much from myself......

its true that i am someone that ppl should avoid..if i am someone else , i will sure avoid someone like me... too stubborn, too emo, too passive, too tense up... and i hd seen many example.. ppl around me get influence by me towards that lousy path... of course they are all ppl that care about me... if ppl din even care they wont find it hard.. coz they can simply ignore me or just avoid me..

may be its time already finally.. for me to become mature.. at least to be a better person.. i know its like saying nonsense ... to be better.. how well is better.. i just want to improve .. i wont use the word change myself or find back myself like last time... i just wanna improve.. and i shall improve..

so lets time to prove it.. and lets my heart, mind and soul to be one .. to unite , to reach what i shall obtain.

'sorry' its the word i used.. frequently to myself.. but from now on i wont use it anymore.. i shall improve.. sorry has been black listed.. it wont mean anything except finding excuses for myself and the act of irresponsible...

amitabha.. may my wish come true .. to improve

1. be moderate in everything

2. not to comment unnecessarily

3. try to be neutral, without bias

4. try to see the world in different angles

5. be truthful to myself

6. be loyal to my soul

7. listen but not just hear

8. respect others as well as myself

=)

人生趣味定律（转）

1.蘋果定律：如果在一堆蘋果裏，有好的也有壞的，你就應該先吃好的，把壞的扔掉，如 果你先吃壞的，本來好的最後也會變壞，你將永遠吃不到好的，人生也是如此。

2.快樂定律：任何事情只要你往好處想你就會快樂，就像你如果不小心掉進水溝裏時，你可以幻想說不定剛好有一條魚鑽進你的口袋。

3.幸福定律：如果你不是總是在想自己是否是幸福的時候，你就幸福了。

4.地位定律：有人站在山腳下，有人站在山頂上，雖然所處的位置不一樣，但在兩人眼裡 的對方的大小看來都一樣。

5.沈默定律：在爭辯的時候，最難以被辯倒的觀點就是沈默。

6.動力定律：動力往往源自兩種原因，希望或絕望。

7.受辱定律：受辱時的唯一辦法就是忽視它，如果不能忽視它，就藐視它，如果連藐視它 也不能，那你就只有受辱了。

8.愚蠢定律：愚蠢大多是在手腳，或嘴比大腦行動還快的時候就產生了。

9.價值定律：當你終於擁有某一項東西的時候，你就會發現這種東西並不像你原來所想的 那樣有價值。

10.失眠定律：開了電視睡得著，關了電視反而睡不著。

11.人生定律：人生一輩子就是一盤棋，每一步都是靠自己走出來的。

12.談話定律：最使人厭煩的談話有兩種，一是從來不停下來想想，另一種是從來不想停 下來。

13.慣性定律：任何事情只要你能夠堅持不斷地去做它，它終究會變成一種習慣。

14.遊戲定律：無論你的保齡球打得多爛， 每次玩時都可能有一兩次全倒，令你高興到下 次還會再來玩。

15.指責定律：當用一個手指指責別人的時候，別忘了有四個手指正指向自己。

16.旅遊定律：沒有比記憶中更好的風景，所以最好不要故地重遊。

17.備份定律：學會用你的左手做一些事情，因為右手不是永遠都管用。

18.時間定律：一分鐘到底有多長？這要看，你是蹲在廁所裡面，還是等在廁所外面。

19.尋找定律：有時愈是急著找東西，就愈是找不到，靜下心來發一下呆，你就會發現東 西一直就在你左手中。

等待. 送别.

等待，原来可以很从容

送别，原来可以很悸动

等待. 送别. 好久没做这样的事了..

等待与送别同一个人，更是不再有。。

虽然不知现在等待的是厄运或好运

送别的是知识或欢乐，

还是感恩上天如此的安排。。

感恩让我有不一样又久违的从容和悸动。。

挑战

这几天真的。。不懂怎么说。。有种非常挑战自我的感觉

第一挑战--痛， 虽然一直都这边痛那边痛，但就从没这么痛法。。

第二挑战--勇气，才知道自己原来那么的怕去看医生，我想我真正能体谅病人们的心情了。。

第三挑战--坚强，不能哭，一定不能哭。。哭了眼睛会痛，哭了会很丑，哭了会emo。。

第四挑战--自制，不能想歪，不能像负面的，不能掉进恶魔的圈套，哦！原来恶魔=emo！！！

第五挑战--控制，不能发脾气，不能提高声量，不能没礼貌，不能不专业！！

看来第五条真的失败了，尤其对妈妈，该死，让她担心个半死，还敢大声对她说话！！钱嘉佩，你很烂吔！！！

Simple Truths
Life is not about finding yourself.....it is about creating yourself!

L.I.V.E.U

一次的爱情，惊天动地，我想我已满足了。。

无奈，原来是我和你的代名词。。

另一种启示。

今天，虽然不是个什么特别日子，但我觉得，是一个值得记住的一天。。虽然都是一些负面的事情，但我想我的人生又有了令一种启示。

今天一早的课被取消了，那当然是件好事，可以多休息一个小时。。

因为昨天我突破了自己的极限，完成了自己没想过可以完成的事，在大学体育馆一口气跑了40大圈，在一个小时以内。。所以真的值得自己奖赏自己一下=D

当我听见也在跑步的人对朋友说今天要一口气跑5圈，希望可以成功。。我有一点暗爽，同时很惊讶，原来我早已远远超越，当然也希望那人能成功，虽然是个陌生人。。

#有时回头看看，你会发现，你已超越许多人#记得体育馆里其中一个海报是这么写的，至于出至于那位运动健将，我忘了 XD

以为休息多一小时，应该比较精神的，结果脑袋重重的很勉强的去上课。。那堂课真的很想给脸专心，但头真的很晕，我想我真的不行了，教授的POWERPOINT真的够力。。146 个SLIDE。。晕倒，没生病的都受不了，我想我又突破了另一样东西，我还勉强可以专心80%，在那么眩晕的情况下。。

放学回到房间就一直睡觉，头还是很晕。。这种感觉真是第一次。。也许是因为生理期，还有昨天太激烈运动，加上最近腹部left lumbar region有点疼痛。。不会是大肠出事了吧?! 得去看医生才行了。。人生有时真的很短促，这也是我想要当医生其中一个原因。。原来生病时，真的很容易被魔鬼侵占头脑，突然间好多负面的想法，回忆统统跑出来。。好想哭。。但我懂只要熬得过，就会没事的，所以忍住了眼泪。。。好可笑，竟然跑去告诉妈妈，结果又被骂一顿，我虽然不爽生病还要被骂，但心里明白妈妈真的很担心，我呀！也太不孝了。。突然发现自己开始会站在别人立场想。。也许我真的长大了。。

晚上感觉好了一点，要去为我的同学们打气，这是我们离开印度前最后的战役，必胜的印度舞蹈比赛。。看着他们很努力的在台上表现，想起他们这些日子的付出，真的不能不大声为他们打气。。真的太棒了。。好友刚买了相机但不怎么会用，所以就叫我帮忙拍照，我也不怎么会，发现是时候要catch up 一点摄影技巧了，回想那些年。。我是摄影组的。。终于，成绩公布了，我们竟然得不到第一，只得第二，大家突然失落了起来，这时天空也下起了毛毛雨。。去年我们知道自己是最好的，但没赢，今年，结果还是一样。。这，让我体会，人生有时真的不是没努力过，而是终究还是不能抵达。。别人的肯定。。

回到房间，闲着就去看看妹妹的博客，结果发现雷同的事。。我不懂她想要得到谁的肯定，也不敢胡乱猜测，但我知道，这对她，真的很重要。。人，总是很努力的要活在一些标准下，无论是自己定的标准，社会设的标准，一大堆的规则，目标。。。当然规则与目标是必然的。。只是有时太过于逼迫自己去跟从与追随，真的会让人有点喘不过气。。所以我有了自己对人生的令一个看法。。当然我是绝对支持规则与目标的重要性，也会努力的遵从，完成。。只是我也认为，如果我最终想抵达的是幸福，那我想就算达不到某某某的标准，只要我懂自己努力了，那就是最好的，我，也会幸福的，不是吗?!^^

playlist轮到了一首老歌《一生何求》，如果有人问我一生何求，我想我知道。。我的答案，你呢？

看了许多朋友的博客，有高兴的，伤心的。。其中很多都是让人心痛的事，原来到了这个年纪，没有小时盼望长大的美好。。我们都长大了，要学会面对许多的事情，还有更多更大的挑战在等着。。几米说：未来的路还有很长，你也许会哭，但也要勇敢把它走完。。我也曾经有过难过，低落，忧郁的一段日子，所以真的很明白他们的心情，人生路，有起有落。。加油吧！朋友们。未来不管还有什么在等着，《光辉岁月》里--一生经过彷徨的挣扎，自信可改变未来，问谁又能做到。。我希望是我，希望大家也一样！

幾米的童話城堡

聽說旅行的意義就是逃離。

逃離的不是一座城，

而是一段記憶。

=D

當明天變成了今天成為了昨天，

最後成為記憶裡不再重要的某一天，

我們突然發現自己在不知不覺中已被時間推著向前走，

這不是在靜止的火車裡，

與相鄰列車交錯時，

彷彿自己在前進的錯覺，

而是我們真實的在成長，

在這件事裡成了另一個自己。
By: 幾米的童話城堡

旧地重游--KAUP BEACH / KAPU BEACH

Recent trip-- November 2011

First trip--March 2010

那天旧地重游了

一样的天

一样的海

一样的石头

一样的小溪

一样的人

一样的书包

不一样的心情

不一样的角色

不一样的话题

不一样的活动

不一样的角度

不一样的机遇

这名为KAUP BEACH 的海滩， 和我的名字有点像的海滩，唯一危险不能下水的海

只是有点感慨，无论去了多少次，都无法把你带去。。

不过，我还是快乐的 XD

最近很想做一件事

但又不知道该不该

我不想想太多

怕会影响自己

最重要的是不想影响别人

我不想再跟自己过不去

但我不忍心再周旋下去

这么放着，好吗？？

不好又能如何呢？

我想就这么放着吧！

或许在无能为力之下

静静的，或许是唯一可以为他做的

我祈求神明保佑

阿弥陀佛，袮一定听得见我的祷告吧!

飞蛾扑火

飞蛾本应自由翱翔

却爱上了烈火

烈火知道 迷恋飞蛾的结局

会剥夺飞蛾的一切

然而 飞蛾早已作了最后的准备

飞蛾的眼泪 一滴一滴

烈火的无奈 无穷无尽

何止不能安抚飞蛾

连飞蛾的眼泪

早在未能触碰前 就蒸发了

烈火心中无尽争扎

终于狠下绝心 赶走飞蛾

于是火势越来越巨猛

希望飞蛾会知难而退

但飞蛾不死的决心 已超越一切

飞蛾告诉烈火：

其实我的泪早已穿透你的心 不是吗？

就用我的泪为墨 你的心为纸

从此感动与心痛 纵横 写永恒

最后飞蛾决定了

在烈火怀里结束了自己的生命

泪为墨 心为纸 感动与心痛 纵横 写永恒

有时，爱情犹如飞蛾扑火。回想起，像是失去了许多，但那些回忆毕竟填满了那段岁月。其实，爱情像友情和亲情一样，是人生必经之路，有失必有得。人生路，许多苦，但只要懂得自己的方向，幸福也许就在不远处。

希望天下有情人终成眷属，单身的朋友也勇敢地迈向自己的幸福吧！

最近都在看『我可能不会爱你』这部剧。。

想了很多很多。。里面的讯息我不懂是正面还是负面

有时人真的很奇怪

正与负 都这是个人观点，其实是因为合乎个人的想法，就叫做对

要客观地去看一部剧，原来也有难度

但我的人很讲究缘分与巧合

所以就很常会把所见所闻，都运用于自己的日常生活上

人啊！真是奇怪

我不可能会爱你，

我可能不会爱你

。。

好乱哦！！

不过我仿佛在寻找一个答案

希望不是在找可以承托原先答案的答案

而是客观的找出真正的答案

有很长的一段时间

我累了

所以放弃了答案的寻觅

但其实也没错

有些事情是永远没有答案的

所以现在我在啊找什么呢？

我想是一个可以带我通往未来的通路

虽然没有人会知道未来长什么样子

但我只希望沿着一条安全的道路

无论终点是哪里

我希望抵达时

回头望来，我是享受的

幸福的

没遗憾的

天路 Road to Heaven - 阿蘭達瓦卓瑪

超级喜欢这首歌！！！！

天路 - 阿蘭達瓦卓瑪
作詞:屈垣 作曲:印青

http://content.bangtech.com/jukebox/christian/alan_road_to_heaven.htm

清晨我站在青青的牧場
看到神鷹披著那霞光
像一片祥雲飛過藍天
為雪域高原帶來吉祥

黃昏我站在高高的山崗
看那鐵路修到我家鄉
一條條巨龍翻山越嶺
為藏家兒女送來安康

那是一條神奇的天路
人間的溫暖送到邊疆
青稞酒酥油茶會更加香甜
幸福的歌聲傳遍四方

黃昏我站在高高的山崗
看那鐵路修到我家鄉
一條條巨龍翻山越嶺
為藏家兒女送來安康

那是一條神奇的天路
人間的溫暖送到邊疆
從此山不再高路不再漫長
幸福的歌聲傳遍四方

那是一條神奇的天路
帶我們走進人間天堂
青稞酒酥油茶會更加香甜
各族人民歡聚一堂
幸福的歌聲傳遍四方

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7P-CIytM_c&feature=share

是时候对自己说，那不是我的--我想我不会爱你

放下，不是原谅他，而是放过自己，心里太多不甘心，快乐怎么住进去呢?--我可能不会爱你