My Doubt

Yesterday, I went to talk to Rcl…it has been some time…we have direct face to face conversation…quiet a lot of people thought that something happen between us….since we are so good buddies from sem 2 but seems that we do not interact at all now…At first, I thought I have done something wrong…
Yup…I am not as perfect as what I thought bout myself..
I am selfish..
Stubborn…
Ungrateful…
I take everything for granted….
Seldom have I admitted that I am wrong…
I always think that I am correct and stick to it…
When someone did something that I do not accept….
I get fade up
I am always very strict to ppl around me….
Those that I care..
Sometimes, they find hard to cope with me
I made them suffer
And
I am not happy either
What I have done…
To HER
To Shrn, Rcl, my family..
I am so wrong…
So wrong to only realize it NoW……

I ask Rcl..
I finally make up my mind
To approach her
All naked…mentally..
I use the excuse that Gh want me to inform her that he failed to find the lecturer to sign the attendant book…
Then I ask her…
Have I done anything that irritated her?
She just gives me a mildly smile…
Plus a ‘no’
The shortest answer that I get from her since we know each other…
I reply with a smile…
As usual…
To hide my doubt..
I doubt…
Is it the end?
iS it just begin?
Or
There is actually no ending nor beginning?