遗忘

就让我敬往事一杯，对自己说，绝不后退。

让我把回忆当晚餐，吞下这许多年的酸，爱恨是掌心的沙漠，故事被点了穴遗忘.

不懂

一直以来就有很多不懂

不懂为什么世界是这样的

不懂为什么我会这样

很多东西做，但不懂从何做起

不懂不懂不懂

或许

根本就没有答案

或许

答案就在我眼前

只是我不愿意接受

或许。。

不懂。。

一起走完

夜，很平静

心，很扎实

距离，很遥远

心境，却很靠近

路，还很长

但，早已决定

要和你，一起走完

这条路不好走

今天凯欣要去修鞋子，她说印度的路很难走，鞋子都坏了！

我说：对阿！这条路真的不好走。医学这条路， 很漫长，要有一颗很真诚的心，永不放弃的心，永远坚持跟常青的心。其实医学这一科我从来都没想过，因为自己不够quali，因为要读很久，因为会很忙。不过我就是这样的一个人，爱好忙碌，没有什么好，就是比人能耐，可以三天不睡觉，可以在很短的时间内完成很多事情。妈妈说：不如考虑学医，可以救人，也可以提升自己跟家人的生活水平。一向以来都很想改变这个世界，就想搞不好当医生真的可以改变世界。。不过也要看我的造化，因为家里根本没能供我读医科，申请奖学金吧！皇天不负有心人，得了政府奖学金，路才刚开始。。。我对妈妈说：很漫长，想放弃，妈妈一句话打动了我。妈妈说：我从怀胎十月到你们出世，够久吧！出世后到你们上学，够久吧！到你们长大，十多二十年的时光，够久吧！世上有哪些事不需要时间的呢？一步登天又能做什么？所以急性子的我就想打通五筋六脉，选择往这条路闯。。

以为这是一条专注于通往未来前途的道路，不过半途，命中注定的那个人出现了，原来我真真要走的路，是这样的。如果当初放弃了，我根本不会遇见你，是命中注定的缘分吗？从此这条路就变得更漫长，漫长的相思，漫长的等待，有时也会彷徨，究竟会有理想中的结果吗？我相信，我们能的，对吧！

谢谢你，虽然一切都太仓促，不过人生短短数十载，这样我们才不会浪费珍惜彼此的光阴？！

这条路不好走
但有人牵着走
也不妨潇洒走一走
或许半途被逼分离
但有人在另一岸
向你招手
既然是前世约定要挽的手
就要努力往前走
然后路还很长
不过可以牵着一起走。。。

牵手

牵手

因为爱着你的爱
因为梦着你的梦
所以悲伤着你的悲伤
幸福着你的幸福
因为路过你的路
因为苦过你的苦
所以快乐着你的快乐
追逐着你的追逐
因为誓言不敢听
因为承诺不敢信
所以放心着你的沉默
去说服明天的命运
没有风雨躲的过
没有坎坷不必走
所以安心的牵你的手
不去想该不该回头
也许牵了手的手
前生不一定好走
也许有了伴的路
今生还要更忙碌
所以牵了手的手
来生还要一起走
所以有了伴的路
没有岁月可回头

想

想每天看到你

想每天听你为我祈祷

想每天为你努力

想每天都能看到你的微笑

想每天为你唱歌

想成为你的全部

想你的拥抱

想每天睡醒在你怀里

想跟你述说世界大事

想天天跟你撒娇

想每天都要爱上你

想你，是每天必做的功课

爱你，永远都不够

泪为墨 心为纸 感动与心痛 纵横 写永恒

我懂我很想他，我懂我很爱他，我以为我懂，原来我不懂，如果我懂，我不会每天等他上网，如果我懂，我不会每天放学就冲回房间等他，如果我懂，我不会假装睡着，不跟他讲话，如果我懂，我不会再接到他的电话而泪流满脸，原来我不懂，我们的爱，原来，那么深刻。

泪为墨 心为纸 感动与心痛 纵横 写永恒

生命的色彩

最近一直有一个坏习惯，就是每次看着你就会不懂怎么把视线移开，可能你也察觉到，会说好了不要再看了，每次都会依依不舍，真是糟糕阿！昨晚真的很想念你的拥抱，一直回想起你给的拥抱，虽然不那么清晰了，但至少还有一点残留的温度和感觉，不懂要到几时才能再抱你呢？

每天都会担心失去你，怕自己有一天会完全忘了你的样子，你的感觉，你的气息，你的声音，我的世界应该就会是一片空白或一片黑暗吧！只想每天都念着你，粘着你，因为你是我生命里的所有色彩，一点也没夸张，谢谢你这个大画家，彩绘了我的世界。虽然有时画工不太好，但我却很欣赏，愿意做你的知音。我当然也希望自己是个音乐家能用音符点缀你的世界，让你做我心弦的唯一听众。

选择

其实我从来都没有觉得很辛苦，或是埋怨你，只是有时想撒娇以下，我们的模式可能跟其他人不一样，你可能不能给我什么，但我都回默默地等，因为我相信你，相信我们一定可以很好地走下去，这是我自己选择的，我爱你。

不完美的爱

只要是你的爱，就是我要的爱，别说不完整，在我心里，你是无限的，你忘了吗？
刚才才知道原来我是这么的容易被你影响，原来我真的很很很很很想你
那首该死的秋来又秋去又一直在脑海里回荡
我在想要到几时才能回到你身边，牛郎和织女也一年能相拥一次，我们呢？
我想到时我见到你一定会把你抱得紧紧的。
不过，我愿意等，无论多久，也不会怨你，所以不要觉得对不起我，只要你爱我，就够了，我会永远守候着我们的爱
其实在不知不觉中，想你已经变成像血在流一样，理所当然，无时无刻，随时随地，当一个人在走路，当吃好吃的东西，当上课一半，当看到别的情侣，当一个人听歌，甚至难得有十分钟的空闲时间，上厕所的时间，最想你是每晚闭眼睡前的一刻。还有他们一直在我面前提起你。。渐渐的我习惯甚至喜欢上这种感觉，所以无奈就被取而代之了。谁说不完美，我觉得很美呢^^

Finally

Ever since i reach here, manipal, i am not feeling well, i hv headache, stomachache, back pain, cramps, feeling weak, ...all kinds of symptoms...is like too much of pattern as what siong and eleen said...

Actually i like here so much...i am happy that i m here except that i m far away from home...normally i m happy with busy life... those that know me well will certainly agree on that...so what's the problem now?
I always wonder...

May be i thought that I can adapt fast but i am not...
May be i really miss home but not concious about that...
May be the two month of rest slow everthing down...
May be i really miss him...
May be i am not prepared well to be a medical student..

so much of may be and i know 99% of it is true
is quite late for me to finally notice it now...
Thank God.. i finally get used to it now..after one and a half month

is it too slow..ya quite as compared to my past experience..lol
but this is a nice start...should i call it a start
??

so, let's work hard ...cheer up...dear 78...hehe ...my roll no. in class

My experience at the hospital

This is the entrance of Kasturba Hospital..

Since young , i never like to go to the hospital, i don like to c doctor or dentists at the clinic either, its not bcoz of d smell of medicine or wat...i just don't like to go if not necessary, may be bcoz it gives me the feelings of sadness...but i really like to help those who are suffering, that's why i take MBBS.

As a student here, we have medicare service for free.I had sore throat since i reach IndiA, may be bcoz i was not used to the water, the food and the weather here, so i went to the hospital. Apart from sore throat, the doctor asked if i had joint pain and others complaints or not. Is true that i hd pain all over my body that day. So, for prognosis purpose, they took 3 heparinised vacutainers of my blood and they oso do ECG for me, OMG..how come sore throat can lead to heart problem one..luckily its normal...sweat..

I never go back to consult the doctor after that,coz I am too busy and just don't hv time to go there though it is quite near the university.Till that day my friends went to the dentist for braises.

I always have the wish to do braises so that my teeth can be relocated neatly..
Since i will be studying here in Manipal for 2 and a half years, i decide to consult the dentist here. I saw my blood test in my file..it states that my hemoglobin and HCT levels are low..at first, i don't really border about that..but i have class and practical on blood topics in physiology, then i find out i am a bit anemic and i hv to do something bout it..but i just don't have time to go to the hospital for consultation on that coz i ll spend half a day there if i go , the hospital is owiz crowded and i hv biochem and physio exams, SDL next week. Luckily the parcel that my mum send arrive d..its exactly 14 days as wat postlaju promise. So, i hv d chinese herbs that my mum prepare 4 me...Thanks mummy..I love u..

Talking bout the braises, i had another shocking thing to discover. I always thought that my teeth just not grown in the appropriate position but it is not. The dentist said i have problem because one of my facial bone is slightly inside compared to the normal one, and to fix everything i have to gone through a surgery called orthonagtics, it ll invovle plastic surgeon also cause is the bone that they are going to relocate not just the teeth. If i go for the surgery, i ll look better with my bone in right position but my face ll change a bit..they said i can consider first, if not they ll just put braises on my teeth.

OMG!!!Am i going to do plastic surgery in India. I asked some of my friends, some says since it is so cheap and i can improve my image, don't waste the chance, but some say it is not that complicated, just straighten the teeth will do..some say they ll miss how i look now if i go...

Actually, i really don't want to be more beautiful or what, i just satisfied with how i look now, plus surgery ll owiz related to complications and consequence effects, so i decide to do braises only..

Its hard to belive...what will be the consequence if i go for the surgery...lol...who knows????^^

乃敢与俊绝

因为爱上你的爱，所以，梦着你的梦，幸福你的幸福，悲伤你的悲伤

我欲与俊相知，长命无绝哀，山无陵，江水为竭，冬雷震震，夏雨雪，天地合，乃敢与俊绝

朱唇轻点诉东风，
泪烛笑看明月浓，
春雨无情催花落，
千丈红尘始作终。

指间沙 过往
何妨 一页泛黄 一句一伤
烟水茫茫

是 太过痴妄
问 何谓炎凉

归雁尽 尽杯觞
繁花盛 何处潇湘
红尘倦 爱过这一场
相望 相忘

舞如殇 谁身旁
谁又将 月色洗成悲伤
征鸿望 低眉谁目光
一生一世的长

轻雾敛 翩跹
经年 月华如练 一如从前
此情难却
是 太过留恋
问 何谓永远

冷袖翻 曲声咽
水中月 任明灭
缘生浅 为谁空执念
相忆 相诀

绮楼月 千金阙
昔年约 风几过催落叶

若回首 红妆黛眉浅
相携 落花如雪

我怀疑

人生总是有一些些东西再重复着

逃避的问题总是会一再被提起

真的可以隔着不管吗？

真的会船到桥头自然直吗？

有些事情可能用一辈子都不能改变的

真的要那么无奈的活着吗？

放手会舒服

还是束缚

我怀疑


每天总是微笑道再见

真会再相见吗？

还能再说多少次再见

我怀疑


选择了就不可以反悔吗？

谁说的?

遵守承诺就可以到永远吗？

天知道

还能再反悔，再选择，再反悔，再选择

重复着？

我怀疑

明月照紅塵

唱 殷正洋
詞 余欣蓓
曲 余政憲



紅塵萬丈歲月悠悠眼前逝　　明月依舊清亮照四方
悲情與創傷 終有休止時　　 是非恩怨兩相忘

浮世離亂回首已是百年身　　悲歡離合彷若夢一場
最絢爛人生幾度天涼秋　　最徬徨命運猶見天光

夜未央　　是誰在記憶長廊中竟難忘
往事的綠苔已斑剝
春花已枯黃　　儷人淚兩行
青絲白髮猶記少年傷

穿越夜色的長階　　人間月映千江水
一覺有情離捨萬種痴　　萬種痴
慈悲智慧長相隨　　心存感恩天地開
笑看人生往事一轉眼

穿越夜色的長階　　人間月映千江水
一覺有情離捨萬種痴　　萬種痴
慈悲智慧長相隨　　心存感恩天地開
看人間 有明月照紅塵

天上星星数不清

天上星星数不清

个个都是我地梦

纵然有几片云飘过

遮不住闪亮亮地情

心串串 心怦怦

脸儿红

都是为了你

是你到我的梦里来

还是要我走出梦中





















池里浮萍数不清

片片都是我的梦

纵然有几阵风吹过

拂不去浓又密的情

心串串心怦怦脸儿红

都是为了你

盼你的心和我连成一串

一生一世不分离

DreAM

It does not matter much whom we live with in this world, but it matters a great deal whom we dream of.
Willa Cather (1873-1947)


Every day and night

You are in my dreAM

Even when I was awake

Is this dream

that bring me nearer and closer

deep inside

the bottom of thoughts

like the stars shine at night

they unite

and form a line

from mine to yours

just like what u say

now or then

near or far

lovin' you

that is my answer

中秋

中秋佳节庆团圆，但我却离家这么远，从坐飞机到达车摇摇晃晃，漫长的的路途，风尘迫迫到了异乡求学，才知道回家的路可以这么远的。

今天真是繁忙的一天。早上上课半睡半醒的，然后还要加节，过后还有帮学长做SURVEY，然后急急忙忙跑到蛮远的警察局拿RESIDENTIALPERMIT，当了将近一个月的非法移民总算拿到居留证。

一整天都下大雨，全身除了雨水还有被溅到的烂泥，我才惊觉我真的在印度了。

不过开始喜欢欣赏这边的雨，坐在餐厅里，望出去，雨一下向左一下向右，千变万化。而我也很快学会了感受风的方向，要不然可会拿着雨伞却淋得像落汤鸡.

这个中秋恐怕也看不到月亮了，所以根本就没有什么外国月亮比较圆的。月亮姑娘啊，还真是很挂念你叻！

为俊拂青丝

烦俊为我拂青丝

却是青丝为俊拂

长夜念念为俊思

送俊千里终一别

望俊莫忘真情意

相隔两地心相依

There is no rain tonite

There is no rain tonite

i thought i ll never cry

but my tears still alive

though 4 u i can die

but i rather die than cry

give me back my smiling eyes

very hard i try

but sorry i cant say bye

守候

这一生有梦

但愿你能懂

路再长

我仍为你守候

Depress

i feel unsatisfied

i feel depress

everything just not in good manner

hutan lost d

jun fly d

i ll hv to fly soon

tvxq r facing with contract case

jun's family don seem to like me

i don like myself either

i wan 2 gt my mind heart n soul to b free

god please help me

guanyin pusha i pray hard to u

i wan to shout out loud

i wan to cry

but i hv promise someone

very important

i cant

songs, music, sutra

or

sleep, eat, watching tv

still i feel mess up

keep on saying

cheer up
cheer up

but just cant help

ahrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

mayb tis can help

shld i bcum

wu qing again?

shld i?

can i?

y m i so useless?

cant stand my self

u r useless
useless
useless

run
run
run

gambateh!!!!

fighting!!!!

i love u!!!!

finaLLY gt my a-levels results

thank God

is15!!!!

congrats to all my frens as well

now waiting

waiting to fly

i believe i can fly...^^

everything shld b ok

lalala....

yesterday i compose a song..

quite weird to sing it out..

but nice playing with chinese flute...

miss orchestra very much..

later will miss home oso..

have to enjoy to the fullest this few days...

Goodbye my love...

wait 4 me

n...

INDIA!!!!

i m coming^^

Long time not drop by here oredi...paise la...

this whole month i have gone through lots of new and interesting experience...

i have been to BTN...for those who dont know is birotatanegara...its fun and i met lotz of cool ppl there....

just cant believe a-level is over...now waiting for result...hope everything will b fine...

another great newz is my form five classmate juz get married today...really hard to believe..bt its true...hope love and happiness will surround her everday and nite...
ConGratz....my dear POOiYee...Her husband is from Pahang...don't know till when v can meet again...miss u...